Life has a funny way of timing things. Start a new project, have chaos enter your life for a while and delay the start. I will be finishing up moving today. It has been exhausting and slightly drama filled but it will be all over soon. It did however, cause a situation that seems to fit in with my whole goal here.
For my birthday a couple years ago my dad gave me the only foul ball he’s ever caught at a baseball game. It was in a Tupperware with the tickets from the game. They had all the information about the event on them. I cried when he gave it to me because I knew what a big thing it was for him to do. I came back to my old place one day to find all my things piled very haphazardly in the living room. This annoyed me to say the least. Anyway the upshot is that I can’t find the Tupperware with the baseball.
I got very upset at first. Very upset. I got to thinking this morning about the baseball. What was inherent in the baseball that makes losing it so devastating? I didn’t have it only display. It’s not exactly aesthetically pleasing. It’s the story behind the object that gives it meaning. Well the object being gone doesn’t make the moment I got it any less important. It doesn’t take the meaning away from the gesture. Do I really need a physical reminder of what happened? If I do, how can I say it’s that important to me?
This got me thinking about the notion that unhappiness in life springs from desire. It also brought to mind the platitude that everyone seems to cling to at times in their life, “You can’t take it with you”. So what is important in life? The moments or the things? What is important in spirituality the letter of the teachings, the church, or the spirit of the teachings? Is there a middle ground? This is clearly something I plan on revisiting a few times.
I’m also downsizing like crazy. Going from a 2 bedroom to a small studio is forcing me to pare down my possessions to what really matters to me. What is essential and what I need to stay myself. This fits in really well with what I am doing spiritually too. Trying to figure out what is most important to me. What draws me and what speaks to me? At any rate, less slacking soon!